A lot of people might look at these and wonder if I'm anorexic or if I have a distorted image of my body when I say I need to lose weight. I'm not and I don't. I'm being extremely honest with myself. The truth is that I've let myself go over the years. Exercise has always been easy, up until this last year when I started personal training and going the gym became a bit more challenging. After spending a day in a gym, the last thing I want to do sometimes is spend more time in there for myself. But I'm working on that and it's not the biggest part of the problem. My eating has always been the issue. Back when I was cutting weight to make a weight division for a martial art, I went through cycles of restriction, bingeing and excessive exercise. My relation with food, to say the least, is awful. Food has come to fill an emotional need. Whether I'm bored, angry, sad, happy, nervous, stressed... food is my answer. And genetically, I seem to be predisposed to gain weight mostly in my abdominal area. I've become so self-conscious that I always suck my stomach in when I'm in public and I get depressed whenever I get dressed in the morning because nothing looks right.
These are my "before" pictures and measurements. On the pictures, I commented on the things that I don't like about my body. I want to accept them and have everything in the open so that on the tougher days when temptation feels harder to resist, I can revisit these photos and remind myself why I need to change.
So this is my "before" state, now what I do I want for my "after" state?
1. To decrease my body fat, especially in my mid-section
2. Improve my posture by improving flexibility
3. Get stronger, leaner and faster
4. Most important of all, live a healthy lifestyle in all dimensions of wellness (physical, emotional, intellectual, financial, occupational, social, environmental - post to come later on these)
5. Be in control of my life and feel alive, full of energy and ready to take on the world!
J2H
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